the sadness of too many things.

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Everyone feels pressure on a day to day basis whether it be at work, school or in our personal lives. The amount of pressure and expectations piled on top of each other is enough to question; 

What am I doing?

Where am I going?

How do I fix this?

I have been feeling a lot of pressure lately as I think know that I'm going through a quarter life crisis of sorts. Graduate life hasn't turned out quite the way I expected it to, my plans for the rest of 2013 have been postponed indefinitely and I still haven't found that significant other half.

Whilst the pressure of job hunting is enough to get me rocking back and forth in a dark corner, my current work colleagues decide to ask me on a regular basis 'Is there anyone special in your life?'. I should just tell them no until further notice so it saves me the embarrassment of actually trying to come up with excuses as to why I'm still single. Have I entered a time warp whereby a female is not allowed to be single or doesn't have to be late night texting a male? If that's the case, I'm certainly not a 21st Century female. I have my feet firmly planted in the 19th Century. 

Also, what do you do when you've spent 5 years of your life studying for something and then deciding that it's not what you want to do? A career change at this age is not unheard of but the trouble is actually finding a new career. I have no idea what I'm good at, I have no experience in any of the fields that I have a small interest in and there are literally no jobs out there for a lass like me. It's a dog eat dog world out there. 

Looking at this objectively, pressure only becomes pressure if we allow it to become that way. Writing lists, prioritising and knowing that the sun always shines brighter on the other side. I guess life is all about the journey and not necessarily about the destination but once you get there, I bet the view is breathtaking.

Vanessa

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